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eatyerheartout @ 2005-07-29T13:15:00

2005-07-29T20:17:21Z

g e n e r a l

1. Spell your first name backwards -
eniamreg.

2. Story behind your name -
they thought i was gonna be a boy, daddy named me, but when mommy gave birth, i was a girl but daddy liked the name too much to let it go.

3. How old are you -
19.

4. where do you live -
san deeezy.

d e s c r i b e y o u r

5. Wallet -
teal ariel &a green cassette tape one.

6. Hairbrush -
black &turquoise conair.

7. Toothbrush -
lime green crest with stupid tiny brissels.

8. Jewelry worn daily -
rasta wristband on right wrist. black bracelets on left. rosary around neck. sometimes i were other necklaces &bangles.

10. Pillow cover -
lime green, royal blue, sky blue squares.

13. Sunglasses -
reddish lens chanels, rayban aviators, gold elvis', purple lens with big face fitting frames.

14. Favorite shirt -
my baggy tees.

15. Cologne/Perfume -
burberry brit &coco chanel.

16. CD in stereo right now -
itunes.

17. Piercings -
2 on ear, navel, nose lip &that weird part of ear coming soon (when my brokeass has some $$$)

18. what are you wearing now -
brown yoshitomo nara shirt &undies.

19. Wishing -
i didn't have to do my space planning final.

20. Wanting -
shopping! haha fobbed out.

21. What will you be doing for the remainder of the day?
shower>homework>talking to my luvaaah>sweating.

22. If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what?
even if i could, i wouldn't. i may dislike or possibly HATE people, but thats as far as it goes.

23. Person you wish you could see right now -
my boyfriend.

24. Some of your favorite movies -
the sandlot. willy wonka &the chocolate factory. edwerd scissorhands. drop dead fred.

25. Something you're looking forward to in the coming month -
my nephews birthday party!

26. The last thing you ate -
watermelon.

28. Do you like candles -
nope. wish i did though.

29. Do you like incense -
sometimes.

30. Do you like the taste of blood -
naaah.

31. Do you believe in love -
yesssum.

32. Do you believe in soul mates -
yes.

33. Do you believe in love at first sight -
not really.

34. Do you believe in Heaven -
yes.

35. Do you believe in God -
mos def.

36. What do you want done with your body when you die?
buried.

37. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
a wiener dog!

38. What is the longest you've ever stayed up -
a couple days, maybe even more than that.

39. Can you eat with chopsticks -
yeah. its fun!

40. What's your favorite coin -
what the?

41. What are some of your favorite candies -
sour patch kids. strawberry belts. orange pixie sticks. peach rings. ferrero rocher. symphony. summertime &almond truffles from sees!

42. What's something that you wish people would understand about you? -
that i'm really not the bitch that i may come out to be.

43. What's something you wish you could understand better? -
certain individuals.

44. Who is someone that you really wish was still around -
ama pilo.

45. Where is your favorite place to shop?
nordstrom &pf.

46. Have any tattoos? -
not yet!

47. What is your favorite thing to wear -
baggy tees, hoodies, destroyed jeans &slip ons.

48. How much is the most you've ever spent on a single item of clothing?
i never pay. :] my beetles the most expensive. schoooooooool! but that doesn't count.

49. Who is the least fashionable person you know -
no comment.

50. Do you match your belt with your hair color -
i wear my gold belt with every outfit &it happens to one layer of hair but i didn't do it on purpose.

51. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
cowboy boots+6 pairs of chucks +checkered slip ons +3 grannies +gold/silver/green &hot pink ballets +rocketdogs skull heels +rain boots+ vondutch moonboots +black &blue kung foos y+ellow/royal blue pointy flats +black sling backs +brown indians pink polka dot lace ups +cream crochets+ floral slips +sambas +royal blue dunks ;] green &white asian nets +brown converse +black pumps+rasberry jellies=34.

52. What is the worst trend you see today?
don't know.

s p e c i f i c

1. Do you do drugs -
nope.

2. What kind of shampoo you use?
bed head.

3. What are you listening to right now -
cake.

4. Who was the last person that you called -
mommy.

5. Where do you want to get married?
at a nice church.

6. How many buddies are online right now?
25

7. What would you change about yourself?
my face my stomach my skin color

8. What are essentials in your life?
god mi familia boyfriend friends.

9. Do you send out holiday cards each year -
in elementary.

h a v e y o u e v e r

1. Given someone a bath -
no.

2. Bungee jumped -
no. but i wanna.

3. Made yourself throw up -
no.

4. Skinny dipped -
no.

5. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble -
yeah, don't we all?

6. Cried when someone died -
yeah.

7. Fallen for your best friend -
yeah.

8. Been rejected -
yeah.

9. Rejected someone -
yeah.

10. Used someone -
no.

c u r r e n t

1. Hair -
messy pony tail.

2. Make-up -
eyeliner blush yellow eyeshadow.

3. Annoyance -
my messy room.

4. Smell -
sweat.

5. interest -
uh.

6. hate -
the people that fucked me over.

7. need -
take a shower then finish homework.

8. plans for tomorrow -
hang out with boyfriend then go to class from 6-10pm.

9. mindframe -
everywhere.

10. hurt -
crotch. i'm surfing.

bordem leads to surveys...

2005-07-18T06:11:01Z

me me me!

[b][a][s][i][c][s]

name: germaine susana pinazo
age: 19
date of birth: may 15, 1986
place of birth: san deeezy, paradise valley hospital to be exact.
gender: female.
sexual preference (are you gay or straight): straight
single or taken: taken
height: 5'3"
shoe size: 7-8
hair color: black, light brown, &blizzzonde.
eye color: dark brown.
siblings: older sister.
college: art institute of california-san diego.
high school: sweetwater.
jr.high: national.
elementary: olivewood.

[y][o][u]..

have a crush on someone: its more than that. ;]
wish you could live somewhere else: sometimes.
think about suicide: never.
think others find you attractive: naaah.
want more piercings: yeah. maybe a couple more.
like cleaning: yeah.
like roller coasters: wouldn't know.
write in cursive or print: a mix between the two.
last talked to: vicente<3
last thought of: homework.
last showered: 3 hours ago.
last did laundry: sunday.
last prayed: last night before bed.

[have] [you] [ever…]

jumped off a building: naaah.
killed somebody: no.
made out : duhhh.
kissed someone of the same gender: nope.
bungee jumped: not yet.
dyed your hair: apsssh. since the 6th grade.
flicked off someone: yesssum.
cursed: its part of my everyday life.
gone hunting: no.
cried over a boy: i'm a girl, what do you expect?
been arrested: nope.
had a friend die: nope.
dated a cousin: can you say, EW?
used a gun: does a water gun count?
finished a puzzle: yesssum.
hated someone: uh, YEAH!
made a huge mistake: yes. we're only human.
played w/ someone’s feelings: thats what they thought.
had feelings for someone younger than you: YES ;]

[f][o][r] [o][r] [a][g][a][i][n][s][t]

long distant relationships: against.
killing people: against.
teenage smoking: against.
driving drunk: against.
gay/lesbian relationships: for.

[this] [or] [that]

bar or club: club. club.
pepsi or coke: coke.
dogs or cats: dogs.
phone or .. phone.
rock or rap: please don't make me choose!
pop or rap: pop
guys or girls: guys.
summer or winter: summer.
day or night: night.
hot or cold: hot.
gold or silver: gold.
ketchup or mustard: ketchup.
steak or lobster: lobster.

[f][a][v][o][r][i][t][e][s]

color: green.
actress: dakota fanning. :] RACHEL BILSON.
actor: johnny depp.
city: national city. ;] HAHAHA.
store: nordstrom.
person: too many favorites.
month: may
day: friday.
food: potatoes.
singer: jesse mc cartney.
band(s) (HAHA i added the S): the rocket summer. new kids on the block. the killers.
website: ff.
place: the mall.
soda: coca cola.
game system: nintendo.
pen: the ones i jack from stores/companies. MUHAHA!
car: vw beetle. range rover.
animal: giraffes!
waterbrand: fiji.
burger place: in-n-out.
hobby: shopping.
friends: ryan baluyot candari. janice c------- izon. vicente antonio lagajino.
show: the oc.
news: 15
dog: weiner.
cell phone co.: t-mobile.
sport: cheerleading.
alcohol: i don't drink. i'll settle for a fuzzy navel.
computer: anything thats fast.
fruit: peaches? or oranges?
milkshake: oreo.
weather: hot hot hizzzeat!
state: killa cali.

[d][o] [y][o][u] [t][h][i][n][k] [y][o][u] [a][r][e]…

pretty: no thanks.
funny: i try.
hot: tempertaure-wise, yeah.
friendly: yeah. unless you give me a reason to hate yo ass.
ugly: thats the word!
loveable: yeee.
caring: yeah.
dorky: yeah.
cocky: no.
girly: sometimes.
boyish: so-so.
smart: average.
gangster: yeee. haha. naaah.
God: no. he lives upstairs.

eatyerheartout @ 2005-06-28T16:37:00

2005-06-28T23:38:26Z

X marks the spot.

[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an ipod or mp3
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[x] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[x] I've smoked a pack in a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I don't know what I'm in
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x ] Saw a shooting star
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery...
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been close to love
[x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[x] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[x ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[x] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ ] Taken painkillers
[x ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now
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Thursday, June 23, 2005

10-1

TEN people you enjoy spending time with (in no specific order):
1. Juju
2. Daddy
3. Mommy
4. Janice
5. Vicenkiki
6. Ryan
7. Gladass
8. Christel
9. Alyssa
10. THE REST OF MY FAMILY &FRIENDS :] hehe.

NINE things I'm wearing:
1. Cheer T-shirt
2. Victoria Secret Shorts
3. Philippines Underwear
4. Pink Socks
5. Rasta Wristband
6. Scrunchie
7. Rock the Arts Band
8. Rosary
9. Bobby Pin

EIGHT things on my Mind:
1. What car imma use
2. Food
3. How much my tummy hurts
4. What song I want to download
5. shopping
6. Vicente<3 (I know hes not a thing but whatever... sue me!)
7. Dying my hair
8. What to put on number 8.

SEVEN items I Touch everyday:
1. Keyboard
2. Myself (Get yo mind outta the gutter)
3. Toothbrush
4. My steering wheel
5. My bed
6. Door knobs
7. Phone

SIX things I Do everyday:
1. Eat
2. Brush my teef
3. Talk to my luvahhh
4. Watch television
5. Go online
6. Sleep

FIVE things I want to do before i die:
1. Graduate
2. Get Married
3. Have kids
4. Get a good job
5. Live life to its fullest

FOUR things I will Never do:
1. Cheat on my Vicente
2. Steal
3. hardcore drugs
4. Be Fake

THREE things I Do when I wake up:
1. Stretch
2. Wash my face
3. Take a piss

TWO of my favorite foods:
1. Potatoes
2. Cupcakes

ONE person I love more than any other:
1. You suck, I can't choose just one.
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Thursday, June 16, 2005

<333

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repost in thirty seconds or u will lose someone u love

surveyyy.

2005-04-26T08:02:53Z

---------------BASICS---------------
Full Name: germaine susana pinazo.
Birthday: may 15, 1986.
Nationality: filipino.
Eyes: dark brown.
Hair: black, light brown, &blonde.
Height: 5'3"
Shoe Size: 7
Who lives with you: mi familia.

------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
Flown on a plane: yes sir.
Missed school because it was raining: naaah.
Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: of course. no need to hide your feelings.
Been hurt emotionally: yes.
Had an imaginary friend: yeah. her name was emily.
Ever thought an animated character was hot? arthur.
Been on stage: yeah. when i was in the spelling bee, orchestra &cheer.
Cut your hair: i started at a young age. &now, i just cut my bangs. big whooop dee doo!
Had crush on a teacher: my math teacher from national. my photography teacher at swc. mr galvan's a hottie too. ;] yowzaaas!

----------------------YOUR FAVORITE------------------------
Shampoo: bedhead.
Color: green.
Day/night: night.
Summer/Winter: summer.
Lace or Satin: lace.
Cartoon Character: hello kitty &ariel.
Fave Food: french fries &corndogs.
Fave Drink: coca cola &orange dream machine.
Person/persons talking to online: no one.
Fave sport: hugging.
Fave Car: vw beetle. range rover. g-wagon.

-----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
Wearing: david &goliath jammies &germz white tee.
Eating: nada.
Drinking: coca cola baby!
Thinkin bout: when imma start doing homework again.
Listening to: the the click five.

--------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
Cried: no.
Worn jeans: nope. i wore sweats the whooole day.
Met someone New online: yeah. hah loser status.
Done laundry: mommy did. :]
Drove a car: nope.
Talked on the phone: yeah. a whole lot.
Said "I Love You": yeah.

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
Yourself: sometimes.
Your friends: some of them.
Santa Claus: not anymore.
Tooth Fairy: nahhh.
Destiny/Fate: mos def.
Angels: yes.
UFO's: i'll believe it when i see one.
God: OF COURSE.

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
Do you ever wish you had another name?: sometimes.
Do you like anyone? yes.
Which one of your friends acts the most like you? janice. ryan. glad.
Who can you talk with forever: anyone... maybe? hah. i'm a human chatterbox foo.
Who have you known the longest of your friends: ryan candari. <3
Who's the loudest: lino.
Who's the craziest: me?
Who's the shyest: erica. hah.
Are you close to any family members? yesssa.
Who's the weirdest? they're all weird in their own way. a good way. :]
Who's shoulder do you cry on? janice. well i cry to her on the phone. same shit.
Who do you hang out with the most? friends from school. janice. raymond. wish there was more...
When you cried the most: december.
What's the best feeling in the world: being loved &accepted.
Worst Feeling: getting stepped all over. putting so much time &effort to something that in the end wasn't even worth it in the end.
Do you want all your friends to do this and send it back to you: eh, its on them.
What time is it now?: 4:11 in the am. insomniac huh? apsssh.

FINISH EACH SENTENCE:
Let's walk in the: green field of daisies.
Let's run through: the wind.
Let's look at the: stars.
Where are you all: going?
When will they: shut the fuck up?
How are: you doing?
Why can't you: just go away?
Show me some: skin.
The sky is: blue.
Tell me: if you want me to give you all my time... muhaha.
Hide me: bitch.
Love me: bitch.
I hate your stupid: face.
My mom thinks you're: ugly.
He's not: that into you.
Are you that: stupid?

HAVE YOU EVER?
Kissed your cousin: in a non-sexual kinna way.
Ran away: from people.
Pictured your crush naked: ;]
Skipped school: duhhh.
Cried when someone died: yeah.
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yup.
Done something embarrassing?: all the fuckin time.
Done a drug: yeah.
Cried in school: yeah.

-----------------------WHICH IS BETTER----------------------------
Coke or Pepsi: coke.
Sprite or 7UP: sprite.
Girls or Guys: girls... guys. girls! i love guys!
On the Phone/Computer or In Person: in person.
Scruff or Clean shaved: either one.
Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes have more fun. thought you knew? heee i'm rockin' both. :]
Bitchy or Slutty: bitchy.
Tall or Short: tall.
Pants or Shorts: spongebob squarepants... but he wears long shorts?
Night or Day: night.

------------------------WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX-----------------------
What do you notice first: eyes. style. sense of humor. faux haux? hah!
Last person you slow danced with: vicente lagajino--lovers &friends.

--------------------------THE LAST TIME YOU...-----------------
Showered: at 10pm.
Stepped outside: uh.

--------------------------RANDOMS----------------------------
Your Good Luck Charm: my rosary.
Person You Hate Most: apsssh i think we all know who.
On your desk: computer. cds. coke. cell. homework. a whole lotta stuff just put it that way.
Picture on your desktop: nada.
Movie: win a date with tad hamilton. i'll watch it kbest?
Artist: ashlee simpson.
Ice Cream: mint. pistachio. vanilla bean. with rainbow sprinkles.
Season: summer.
Breakfast Food: hashbrowns &pancakes with a tall glass of miwk.

---------------------------WHO-----------------------
Makes you laugh the most: el familia. janice. ryan.
Makes you smile: people worth smiling for.
Can make you feel better no matter what: mi familia. janice.
Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yes.
Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: guys.

----------------------DO YOU EVER---------------------
Save AIM conversations: if i need to show janice. hah!
Save E-mails: no.
Forward secret E-mails: no.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sometimes. i already have the name. give me a shwang &i'll be good to go. muhaha. ew.
Wear perfume: burberry brit.
Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: i don't think so.

------------------------HAVE YOU EVER-----------------
been in love? yes, &boy was it a mistake.
been in lust? uh.
been used? yes.
Used someone? nope.
Cheated on someone?: never.
Been cheated on?: yeah. fuck you! :]
Done something you regret?: yeah.

--------------------WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...-------------------
You talked to?: anthony.
You hugged?: mommy.
You instant messaged?: boyfriend.
You thought about?: boyfriend.
Who text messaged you?: i forgot.

---------------------DO YOU?-------------------------
Color your hair?: since forever. its dead now. no wonder they call it "dying"
Have tattoos?: no. i will soon though.
Have piercings?: yeah.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nahhh.
Own a webcam?: no.
Ever get off the damn computer?: of courseee horse.
Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: yukin sukin deltiadjc.
Habla espanol: si senor!
Quack?: my sisters bf? muhahaha.

--------------HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...-------------------
Stolen anything?: when i was in kindergarten, i jacked legos. :X
Smoke?: used to. ew, big EW.
Schizophrenic?: nope.
Compulsive?: nope.
Obsessive compulsive?: no.
Panic?: no.
Anxiety?: no.

fity firsts.

1. 1st school you attended:
olivewood.

2. 1st friend you had when you entered school:
ryan baluyot candari &teddy takayuchi.

3. 1st ambition:
fashion designer since forever.

4. 1st award you received:
good citizen biiiatch.

5. 1st hero:
my parents &my sistahhh.

6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for disciplinary actions:
1st grade when i got bullied by a 6th grader. :X

7. 1st time you failed in school:
10th arreolas.

8. 1st trip you took:
p-town baby!

9. 1st teacher in school:
mrs. lang.

10. 1st job:
none.

11. 1st goal you achieved:
being myself.

12. 1st crush:
teddy takayuchi. he was my bestfriend in kinder, besides ryan.

13. 1st person who gave you flowers:
i don't remember.

14. 1st date:
must've slipped my mind.

15. 1st toy:
hand-me-downs.

16. 1st kiss:
my parents.

17. 1st movie you watched at a theater:
the bodyguard.

18. 1st concert:
sugar ray.

19. 1st computer:
compaq.

20. 1st time you went ice skating:
5th grade.

21. 1st scary movie you saw:
one that made me pee in my pants i bet.

22. 1st best friend:
ryan &teddy.

23. 1st record you bought:
my little pony. vinyl.

24. 1st song you sang infront of many people:
top of the world.

25. 1st musical instrument you learned to play:
violin.

26. 1st favorite color:
green &purple.

27. 1st celebrity you saw in person:
jacob from o-town.

28. 1st TV show you really liked:
zoobalizoo(spellcheck) &the elephant show.

29. 1st book you bought:
the scratch &sniff nursery rhymes. yeee.

30. 1st sport you played:
soccer.

31. 1st sleepover:
never.

32. 1st terrible fight:
increase the peace yo.

33. 1st prank:
everyday.

34. 1st inaanak:
nathan joshua.

35. 1st debut party you attended:
my moms friends daughters.

36. 1st time you entered a bar:
i don't know.

37. 1st drink of alcohol:
in junior high.

38. 1st wedding you attended:
kuya randy &ate tess'

39. 1st person who greeted you on your last birthday:
jaNICE.

40. 1st friend in myspace:
tom.

41. 1st time you got lost:
i don't remember.

42. 1st cellphone:
my itty bitty black ericsson. oh how i miss that damn phone.

43. 1st cellphone ringtone:
the circus.

44. 1st collection:
polly pocket. sailor moon. pogs. sticker books. you name it, i had it.

45. 1st time you felt proud of yourself:
when i found out who my REAL friends were.

46. 1st time you saw a ghost:
never.

47. 1st rollercoaster ride:
i wouldn't consider it a rollercoaster. how lame.

48. 1st time you tried smoking:
when i was 13 yo.

49. 1st time you spent the night alone:
i don't know.

50. 1st person you chatted on the internet with:
star 8.

update bitches.

2004-09-14T07:59:44Z

let me break it down:
september 10--mother left to the philippines.
uhhh. still on vacation until october 3rd. been chillen &all that good stuff. talking on the phone. pilates &getting my shopping on. wheee. ok. thats all you need to know. oh yeah, &janice izon is my favorite. :] peace hemmi.

<3germz.

damn hot.

2004-09-09T04:34:44Z

got my 1045 wake up call from my unofficial. hot lays for breakfast. lalala. talked until 145. left at 2. paid at sears then ats checked her schedule. got some jamba juice yeah bitches don't know how to spell. my name ain't "guerine". ate at rubios. again, bitches don't aren't good with names. my sisters name isn't "yameli". haha. candy at sees then off to ai--hello security guard.... nm. never ending laughter. got cleared. got my id picture taken. ooops i didn't go in line. sorry. we're even then ats. we were both humiliated in one day. i think thats why we're twins. home by 545. tv. dinner. then all the realtives came. damn those nephews of mine. potato head. my silver pimple. apsssh.

&now i'm here. tonight, fold laundry+talk on the phone+get my pilate on. my kangaroo pouch is slowly flattening. i'm doing a good job. yay! &as for tomorrow, daddys birthday. chill in the afternoon &measure the windows for mother. i guess thats another day not seeing you. :[ boohoo. sorry weenie. then later on possibly cut my bangs. eat dinner. lalala k. smhajkehadsa. i'm done.

the end.
<3germz.

i'm backkk!

2004-09-08T08:22:23Z

yay my computers fixed. haven't been on this muther for a lonnnng time.

well since then, a lot has happened. first off:

happy birthday to you:
august24--kuya randy &hot stuff chad michael murray.
august 26--ninong anong &the twins.
august 30--joey.
--finish this later.

anyways, been working things out with christopher the past 2 weeks or so. &i absolutely love it. &i love him. :] my garlic bread breath &my hut. :] lots of phone &nap time. stay home on weekdays, sometimes go out on adventures with my sister. carless cus my sister takes my car to school. booo. so basically i have no choice. been watching a whole lotta tv &listening to my good 'ol cds. finally got my nose pierced. &have been hiding it from daddy. my "so called pimple" shopping. jokes with ats. the literally boogie man &"bob marley &john pratts".

&as for tomorrow, i have a orientation to go to at 5 at ai. yayyyy! how exciting. k i'm done.

lalala. pretty much wraps it up. the end. dun dun dun.

<3germz.

we're not evil. shooot jc penny shirt.

2004-08-23T03:35:12Z

talked to mr. alicbusan from 215 until 3am. blah blah blah. hes my shopping partner. &we work as a team to be blunt together. :] all this talk 'bout saved by the bell. yes, no doubt you are undefeated. up at 1245. ats was at work, mother was out. daddy was sleeping. chocolate rice for breakfast. helped mother unload the car. put away the groceries without her having to tell me cus i'm nice. :] moved the truck. hes dying. :[

lalala took a shower. cleaned out my file cabinet &room. tons of useless papers. carlson called. then ats came home with wendys for lunch. coke? no thank you. h20 is my new best friend. surprise surprise fatass. chilled with el familia in the parentals' room. talked to christopher+janice+maureen+edWERD+son serrick online.

ats &i off to kinkos to print out my homework. scrubbed it out hardcore. cus i don't give a damn 'bout my image. whatevvv. home by 715. kdjsalkdlskadsa. yeah.

tonight, chill &chill. tomorrow, handle my business. simple as that.

"wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be right here waiting for you" promise that.

"so much beauty ifn life. shining on the outside. empty on the inside. i get lost sometimes. blinded my the flashing lights. distractions always in my eyes. so i'm following the sound. the sound of my heart beating. you can take it all away."--ryan cabrera.

the end.
<3germz.

blah.

2004-08-22T09:09:28Z

lalala uh oh i woke up janice! sorry love! but thank you. :]
i love you cuzin of mine.

yesterday. ((august 20, 2004))
up at 11. phone with cuzin. shower power. finished my homework. gas. saw montease. ice cream at jollibee that took forever. geeezus. all that for ice cream? muhahaha. off to north county fair. tiring shit. scored with a pair of pants. then to plaza.. lalala. genghis khan. cute little girl with ketchup on her face. at 945, ate &kuya chris came over. talked &stuff. left at 12. talked to christopher. &that was that. tonight, stay up late what else? &tomorrow, just chill at home &clean... do whatever needs to be done. lalala. ok. the end suckers.

<3germz.

fuck this life of mine.

2004-08-20T09:02:28Z

&it hurts a gazillion times more when you find out that your assumption was right.

edit_447pm
slept at 3. thanks jufran. the horse on the right... my horse. up at 12. went to kmart to buy coke but they were still out of stock. its kinna good that we don't have coke... so i could lose weight. :] developed digicam pictures at radio shack. i likey. home by 110. tv. ats went to work. back to sleep at 150. up at 4. lalala.

&now i'm here. i'm sad. i'm frustrated. i'm confused. i'm pissed. i'm disapointed. i'm depressed. it hurts to my hearts core, tears me to fuckin pieces. geeezus. i just wanna get the fuck outta this place! jdksa hjcasdsa.

anyways, tonight imma do my homework+hopefully talk on the phone+cry myself a gazillion nile rivers. ya know, the usual. all i do is wait for him... &it hurts cus every damn thing reminds me of him so i can't help but cry. i'm scared though, scared of not being with him in the end. i hope he doesn't throw this all away. cus he is all i ever wanted. all i will ever need. dksajl jealdsa. my fuckin gosh. this is so damn hard. it doesn't feel real. i just want to wake up for this nightmare.

anyways, tomorrow we shall go to north county fair &just shop my fuckin my brains out. peace up.

edit_726
why is it that when i change into a better person? it doesn't matter to anyone? i changed for a reason... &the reason is you.

<3germz.

lalalala. 6 fricken days... seems like forever already.

2004-08-19T21:05:35Z

talked to people online &to jufran on the phone this morning. thanks for making me laugh you silly white fob. watched infomercials until 350. stupid lady from the doctor called me up at 945. then called me again 2 minutes later saying the same crap. the fuck is her problem? did she forget that fast? anyways, got up at 11 from ats yelling. geeezus. chips ahoy for breakfast. ended up not going anywhere today so i went back to sleep at 12 until 115 cus james called me. thanks for checking up on me. booo going byebye already? i'll be sure to buy you toilet paper godfather of mine. :] too bad you're not gonna be here for your birthday... i would have greeted you a happy birthday &gave you a hug.

&now i'm here. yada yada yada. ats is sleeping in my bed. today was her last day of summer school! meaning we have next week to go shopping crazy. downtown+hillcrest+fashion! wheee! how exciting! this should be fun... it should take my mind off of this. chill with jufran too cus he owes me from last time when i got stood up. muhahaha. anyways, tonight imma go to ai with the parentals to handle some biznaz &do the usual. online+phone+pilates. tomorrow, i have no idea what imma do. guess we're just gonna "have to wait &see" boy do i hate that.

edit_847pm
talked to christopher. lalala. mother came home. parentals &i off to ai. pj had to go. booo. talked to danielle. got financial stuff done &over with. homework. booo. but s'all good, i don't do shit anyways. then came jerry. man hes super super super hot. done by 725. bought mop heads at smart &final. california burrito for ats &i &a carne asada burrito for the parentals from super sergios. home by 825. ate. blah blah blah. the end. :]

<3germz.

it's not enough, i miss you all the time &i know you kinda like it.

2004-08-19T01:54:46Z

up at 11. shower. got ready while ats took a nap. out by 1225. post office. wal*mart. no ryan cabrera cd. &no damn change for my nemo bracelet. :[ btw, my pearl one broke the other day while i was taking a shower. booo. anyways, went to target. still, no ryan cabrera cd. big fuckin booo. albertson to pick up daddys medicine. home by 215. ats called in for work &since she didn't have to come in today, we left again. off to best buy. scored with the ryan cabrera cd+the killers=20 bucks! wheee. california burrito at super sergios. my treat. which brings me down to 75 bucks? whatev. home by 335.

tv. lalala. actually cleaned my room. &now i'm here, listening to the killers cd. i just got done with the ryan cabrera one, its beautiful. his voice is sexy. oooh baby! ;] but it makes me sad. makes me think 'bout him. :[ anyways, tonight, imma clean my room some more just to keep myself busy &cus my rooms just straight up durrrtay+newlyweds &my usual late night shows. pilataes. blah blah blah. tomorrow, another adventure day with ats of course! probably print out pictures really this time if mother gives me money. hmmmm. ok time to clean my room.

<3germz.

sick &tired of this world, theres no more air.

2004-08-18T00:00:08Z

up at 1145. 5 mini nutter butters for breakfast. laaame. started on my application essay. what a fuckin bitch man. 150 words minimum but no more than 170. by the time i was done with my rough draft, it had like 200 something words. geeezus. so many corrections+eliminating words &freakin marker marks all over the damn paper. took me a while until i actually started my final. done by 1. back to sweetwater hiiii surping! sorry i didn't recognize you at first cus you were damn far. weird that he recognized me by my back. vistor passes again. picked up my transcripts. no charge. yesssa! off to ai dropped of my stuff. jamba juice. the usual+pretzel &white cheddar soy chips. fashion. returned my tube top dress at nordstrom. bought the blazer that i wanted from gap it was 44 bucks instead of 68! yay for me! :] lalala. left at 3. traffic peanut butter. stopped by the doctors. home by 345.

ats off to school. &now i'm here. lalala. tonight, call the bestfriend+summerland season finale. booo. tomorrow, another adventure with ats i hope. hmmm k. i'm done suckaaas.

i look like a little girl. :]

mmm mmm mmm soy thin crisps!

my "special" crotch scratchin' bag+my super cool suhi vistor pass.

the mess inside.

doctor doctor come quick quick quick. what song was that again?

chillen in the car with my super cool pink polka dot ballet shoes! <333

"see ya chamorro"--ats.

Aaliyah--The one i gave my heart to.
How could the one I gave my heart to
break my heart so bad
How could the one who made me happy
make me feel so sad

Won't somebody tell me so I can understand
If you love me how could you hurt me like that
how could the one I gave my world to
throw my world away
How could the one who said I love you
say the things you say
how could the one I was so true to
just tell me lies
How could the one I gave my heart to
break this heart of mine tell me

How could you be so cold to me
when I gave you everything
all my love all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door
how could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever
I can't understand

How could the one I shared my dreams with
take my dreams from me
How could the love that brought such pleasure
bring such misery
won't somebody tell me, somebody tell me please
If you love me how could you do that to me
tell me

Hey,
How could you just walk out the door
how could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever
I can't understand

How could the one ( the one I gave my heart to)
break my heart so bad ( break my heart)
how could the one who made me happy (you made me so happy)
make me feel so sad ( make me feel so sad)
won't somebody tell me( won't you tell me)
so I can understand ( so I can understand)
If you love me how could you hurt me like that
(how could you hurt me)

How could the one I gave my world
throw my world away ( throw my world away)
how could the one that said I love you ( you said you love me)
say the things you say ( but you didn't love me)
how could the one I was so true to
just tell me lies ( you told me lies)
how could the one I gave my heart to (ooooh)
how could the one I gave my heart to (ooooh)
how could one I gave my heart to
break this heart of mine tell me

the end.
<3germz.

sigh

2004-08-16T23:34:37Z

talked to the bestfriend last night/this morning... finally. up at 1245. extra flamin' hot asteriods for breakfast. haha. tv. got ready. out by 2. off to sweetwater. man it was weird. i miss that damn school. lotsa new people. so damn unfamiliar. main office. vistor passes. ewww i felt old. counseling center. transcripts. chilled in the car. lalala. josefats at 240. misty &eliza! picked up 100 dollar check. yeahhh boyyy! 99cent ice cream at jollibee. albertsons. deposited half, cashed the other. read. home by 345. ran my ass off to catch the mail man. tv. lalala. ats off to work &now i'm here. tonight, clean my room+phone+road rules. damn that hottie patrick. why you gotta screw around with the new girl the first night? muhahaha. tomorrow, doctor+print out digicam pictures+pick up transcripts+chill with janice if shes still up for it. ok imma go watch arthur. lalala.

me.

&me.

miss these girls.

foooooooooood.

duckies in my bathroom.

arthurrrr. :]

Start - 5:37PM

SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ name: germaine susana pinazo
+ gender: female
+ age: 18.
+ location: san diego.
+ birthday: may 15, 1986.
+ school: soon to be ai.
+ ethnicity: filipino
+ religion: catholic
+ height: 5'3
+ shoe size: depends on the shoe.
+ hair color: black with red bangs.
+ eye color: dark brown.
+ style: my own. :]
+ fears: not being with him+death.

SECTION 2: HAVE YOU EVER..
+ peed your pants? yes.
+ cheated on someone? never in my life.
+ fallen off the bed? yes.
+ fallen for a relative? the fuck? NO.
+ had plastic surgery? no.
+ broke someone`s heart? no.
+ had your heart broken? unfortunately yes.
+ had a dream come true? yeah. him.
+ had sex? whuttchu think?
+ gotten a lap dance? no.
+ done something you regret? of course.
+ cheated on a test? yes. who hasn't? you would be lying to yourself if you say you haven't.
+ been raped? no.
+ broken a body part? my left ankle. thank you cheer!

SECTION 3: CURRENTLY
+ wearing - a wife beater &boxers.
+ listening to - the news.
+ eating - nothing.
+ feeling - every possible negative feeling.
+ reading - the questions to this survey duhhhh.
+ located - my room.
+ chatting with - no one. i'm lonely. :[
+ watching - the news.
+ craving - him.
+ should REALLY be - nothing. i'm on vacation kid.

SECTION 4: DO YOU...
+ brush your teeth? yes.
+ like anybody? more like love.
+ have any piercing? my ears &belly. soon to be nose. :]
+ drive? yes.
+ believe in Santa Claus? i did. &it sucks that hes not real. i used to TRY &wait up for him.
+ ever get off the damn computer? sometimes. hahaha.
+ smoke? nope.
+ drink? on certain occasions.
+ got a cellphone? yes.
+ got a pager? no. can you say oldschool? haha.

SECTION 5: FRiENDS
+ who is your best? karissima &...
+ who is the loudest? me.
+ who is the shyest? the old edWERD.
+ who is the most talkative? me.
+ who is the 'hottest'? christopher.
+ who is the cutest? hmmm.
+ who laughs the most? i don't know.
+ who have you known the longest? ryan.
+ who have you known the shortest? rasna.
+ who do you miss the most? christopher. karissima. ctown people.
+ who do you turn to for personal problems? my sister. whoever else is there for me.
+ do you only hang out with a certain `type´? no.
+ do you belong to a crew? i wouldn't consider it a crew. ewww.
+ do you hang out with the opposite sex? yeah. i have a lot of guy friends.
+ do you consider yourself POPULAR? no.
+ do you trust your friends? sometimes.
+ are you a good friend? yes.
+ can you keep a secret? yes.

SECTION 6: THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ hugged - my sister.
+ kissed - my sister.
+ gave eprops - uhhhh.
+ IMed - kenji.
+ talked to on the phone - karissima.
+ yelled at - myself.
+ checked out - uhhh...
+ fell in love with - christopher.
+ went out with - christopher.
+ tripped - myself.

SECTION 7: PERSONAL
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? an interior designer. a wife. a mother.
+ What was the worst day of your life? august 12, 2004. the day i lost the love of my fuckin life.
+ What is your most embarrassing story? during cheer practice when i was twisting from a elevator? well yeah when they caught me, they pulled up my shirt &my bra &my front saw my boobies! not like they were all that big. but still. it was embarassing slash hilarious slash i felt bad for that person who saw. hahaha.
+ What has been the best day of your life? meeting him.
+ What comes first in your life? family.
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? no boyfriend. crush? its way more than that.
+ What are you most scared of? didn't i already answer that question?
+ If you had an extra set of eyes were would you put them? in my hands.
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? about him.
+ Did you lose someone you really loved? yes.
+ How many times have you fallen deeply in love? once.
+ Love your family? why of course.
+ Love your friends? yes.
+ Have you smoked? yes.
+ Have you drank? yes.
+ What are you addicted to? him+shopping+jamba juice.
+ Want to move? sometimes.

SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: the sandlot. a walk to remember. finding nemo. edward scissorhands. drop dead fred. white chicks. eurotrip. willy wonka &the chocolate factory.
+ Song: lalalala.
+ Group: maroon 5.
+ Singer: ashlee simpson.
+ Store: uo. nordstrom. sephora. wal*mart.
+ Relative: all of them! i have no favorites. apsssh.
+ Sport: cheerleading. :]
+ Vacation Spot: over there.
+ Ice Cream Flavor: pistachio almond. rainbow sherbet. mudpie mojo.
+ Fruit: tangerines. apples. mangos. banannas.
+ Candy: sour patch kids.
+ Food: french fries &jamba juice.
+ Car: my black 2004 vw beetle of course.
+ Class: i liked econ.
+ Holiday: christmas. my birthday. the 30th.
+ Day of the Week: tuesday cus thats when summerland is on. friday. saturday.
+ Color: green.
+ Magazine: teen people. in touch. teen vogue.
+ Name for a Girl: chanel.
+ Name for a Boy: kdjsakdja.
+ Favorite spot for a date:
+ Favorite spot for an anniversary:
+ Favorite resturant:
+ McDonalds: french fries &tropical tye die dippin dots.
+ Burger King: chicken tenders &a cheery icee.
+ In and Out: hamburger with no tomatoes protein style+animal fries+neopalitan shake.
+ Wendy's: chicken nuggets+chocolate frosty.
+ Quote:

SECTION 9: DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? yes.
+ Like to give kisses? yes. to those who deserve them.
+ Like to walk in the rain? yes.
+ Sleep with or without clothes on? both.
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black.
+ Dress up on Halloween? yes.
+ Have a job? no.
+ Like to travel? yes.
+ Like someone? i love someone.
+ Sleep on your side, tummy, or back? all positions. oooh baby!
+ Think you're attractive? no.
+ Want to marry? yes.
+ Have a goldfish? nope.
+ Ever have the falling dream? maybe.
+ Have stuffed animals? all over the place.
+ Go on vacation? yeah.

SECTION 10: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: thats bad. killing someone. but sometimes, you gotta do it. booo.
+ Bill Clinton: hes a creepy white man with a big nose &a weird accent.
+ Smoking: i have asthma. but sometimes... uhhh...
+ Eating Disorders: awww poor marykate. but i don't like.
+ Suicide: ouch.
+ Summer: my love the sun. isn't it obvious?
+ Tattoos: super cool. imma get one soon.
+ Piercing: addictive.
+ Make-up: "eyeliner is like a magic wand" says tally. &i so agree.

SECTION 11: THIS OR THAT
+ Pierced nose or tongue? tongue.
+ Single or taken? taken.
+ MTV or BET? mtv.
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? dawson' creek.
+Sugar or salt? sugar.
+ Silver or gold? silver.
+ Chocolate or flowers? flowers.
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? both.
+ M&M's or Skittles? both.
+ Stay up late or sleep in? i do both.
+ Hot or cold? hot.
+ Sun or moon? sun.
+ Left or Right? right.
+ 10 acquaintances or one best friend? one bestfriend.
+ Mustard or ketchup? ketchup.
+ Spring or Fall? fall.
+ Give or receive? give.
+ A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? both. muhahaha. the world has too many freaks.
+ Happy or sad? happy.
+ Wonder or amazement? amazement.
+ McDonald's or Burger King? mickeydees hands down.
+ Mexican or Italian food? mexican.
+ Lights on or off? off.
+ Candy or soda? soda.
+ Pepsi or Coke? coke.

End - 6:08PM

the end.
<3germz.

hardest thing i ever had to do.

2004-08-16T03:39:28Z

up at 1240 with poofyass eyes. hurt like hell. burned like hell. got ready. i drove to cousins house up in eastlake. got there around 2ish. ate. wow they came. chilled. karaoke time. wedding video. lalala. left at 7. home. tv. shower. &now i'm here. tonight, imma cry like always. yay! ((sarcasm bitches))+write my 298392372 pages of stuff. &tomorrow, pick up transcript &check from school.

yesterday: ((august 14, 2004))
in-n-out. interview with pj at 1230 at ai. done by 145. talked to christopher on the way to temecula. talked to kia &justin. "why do feet smell when they don't have a nose?". "my brother made this one up.". too cute. ate. chilled. played pool with my cousin. left at 6something. off to pechanga but unforunately, you have to be 21 to get up in there. ahhh booo! home by 745. albertsons 10 for fuckin 10! haha. kmart. talked to edWERD from 9-1240ish. then christopher called around 1ish. talked until 250. cried myself a thousand + 239273827 nile rivers. couldn't sleep. forced myself to sleep at 345. the end.

me.

mother &ninang.

outside.

birdies.

&fishies.

my nephew brandon.

me &my mommy. :]

me+ats+mommy.

dana.

&again.

<3germz.

alone in the fuckin cold.

2004-08-14T05:41:27Z

talked to christopher. doctors appointment at 11. dead left arm. thank you shot. talked to christopher again. then james &charles came over at 1 &talked to mommy for their job while i was outside talking &crying myself a nile river. all was done by 225. thanks for the talk afterwards guys... &thanks for hearing me rant a tant tant. appreciate it. good news from the mail. finally something good in my life happens. got a calgrant for the art institute!. 11 fuckin thousand bucks. so i guess imma be going there instead of mesa. good. that was my 1st choice anyway. but geeezus, how many times am i gonna change the school imma be going to? took a lonnng nap. lately, i've been taking too many damn naps for some reason. i guess to get my mind off things. cus when i'm awake, all i do is think too damn much &depression mode kicks in, &then from there, i start crying. so i guess sleeping is the best thing to do for now. &now i'm here.

tonight, what else is there to do? think 'bout everything &cry. things are gonna be like this for a while. i'm just waiting. &it sucks cus i don't deserve any bit of it. first off, i've been sick for the past 2 months, waking up everyday hoping that i'm a little better but it never works out that way. i always end up sweating like crazy+coughing &yacking out lougies+yellow stuff. ewww. second of all, i've been stuck home all damn week, haven't seen my friends in forever. can't call bestfriend cus she has her own shit to handle. but deng, i ain't really taking advantage of summer vacay. &third of all, my world is just tearing apart. the one &only thing that mattered to me is gone &i'm left with nothing but a broken heart. its so hard to avoid mother when she asks 'bout you. &deng, its so hard when everything reminds me of YOU. but on a good note, being home all week really helped me out. i realized a lot. &i mean a ton. i learned a lot 'bout myself that i should have realized earlier. but better late than never am i right? you can say that i'm changing for the better, only to make things more easier. but yeah... enough. jhsdkjahdsa.

tomorrow, i have an appointment with pj from the art institute. imma get interviewed &fill out an application. 150 for that baby. school doesn't start until october 4th! yay! after that, off to temecula. yeah yeah yeah. alright i'm done. ljing makes me saddddddddER

ps: happy 8 1/2 years to ats &donald. :] i'm happy for you guys.

</3germz.

the first cut is the deepest.

2004-08-13T06:26:19Z

TODAY WAS THE ABSOLUTE WORST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. lets just leave it at that. for once, i shall keep my mouth shut &just keep this all inside of me.

today consisted of crying myself a thousand rivers. &sleeping. nothing more. i'm completely lost. confused. depressed. every possible negative feeling that exists, you name it, i feel it. &honestly, i don't know when i will be back to myself. its hard to determine that cus you meant the world to me... &now, what am i left with? absolutely nothing. &for what reason? i don't know. i gave you everything i had, my heart, my soul.. everything. i did nothing wrong. &what do i get in return? i get this. my heart shattered into a million pieces. it hurts so bad...

it sucks a gazillion times more knowing that it was all coming, but not wanting to admit it to.

lalalala. it hurts just talking 'bout it. so i'll end it here, with my unfinished thoughts.

<3germz.

zzzzzz.

2004-08-12T02:53:21Z

up at 12. called the boyfriend. &again, no answer. gets me worried. haven't heard from him in nearly a week. :X i don't know another way to get a hold of him. called up ats cus she wasn't home. turned out she was at donalds. watched tv. mommys home made zuccini bread. :] pilates. lalala. chilled. ats came home at 330 with wendys. chicken nuggets+fries+chocolate frosty. :] more fuckin tv. ats &i slept in my room around 4ish. janice called at 5. talked for an hour. always a good conversation. i miss janice! :] we're sooo gonna chill next week. stroll downtown to our spot wearing our big shades. muhahaa. love her to fuckin death. watched teen choice awards. cmm! <333 all the performers were good. awesome show. newlyweds. then dishes &now i'm here. tonight, tv &clean my room. tomorrow, i have no idea what imma do. k i'm done. i miss my boyfriend a whole lot! :[ i don't know how many times i gotta say it but i really do. &man, i'm kinna worried 'bout something in particular too. :[ hope to hear from him... sooooooooon.

<3germz.

I SAW TOM DeLONGE! :]

2004-08-11T03:56:17Z

up at 10 from ats whining. deng 2 of them in 2 weeks. geeezus. got ready. left at 11. in-n-out. mmm protein style+neopalitan shake. mmmm. :] fashion my rastinian twin from verizon what a dork. muhahaha. :] accessory crazy at claires etc. giraffe purse at sephora. &mmm i so want that blazer!!! but i'm broke. my atm is dead. :X can ya'll say shopamuthafuckinholic? upstairs. omfg! the cooolest thing happened! ats spotted tom fuckin delonge from blink182 at oilily! he was with his wife &kid. how cute. got his autograph to add to my collection. :] oooh baby! after seeing him, i've singing "all the small things like fuckin all day long! hhaha. anyways, looked around & my brokeass got teased. home by 140. chilled. lalala. at 2, off to jamba juice.went to donalds. chilled until 320. home by 335. ats &i slept. she was hogging all the space. up at 645 with a major headache. those stupid headaches from the heat. booo. tv. dinner. &now i'm here. tadaaa! :] tonight, watch summerland... my favorite! clean my room some more+online stuff. tomorrow, another damn adventure with ats?! hopefully. &hey! i miss my boyfriend. i've been calling him the past 2 days but no one ever answers. heeey! call me. hurry! i fricken miss you! :[

stupid shit! my battery died. :[

chad michael murray. <333 my favorite!

red bull gives you wiiings!

:]

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adventure time with ats.

2004-08-10T00:51:16Z

don't cha just hate it when you have your alarm set at a certain time &you end up waking up a minute before it alarms? geeezus. woke up at 1014. called the boyfriend but no one answered? watched tv with ats. called boyfriend a few more times. then decided to pick out my classes for mesa. shower. it was getting late so i assumed that boyfriend either cancelled his appointment or just went on his own. leftover spagetti. pictures. at 120, off to albertsons hazel eyed asian boy that complimented me. awww thanks. &wanted me to purchase this business looking thang for 10 bucks for charity. ats went to the bank while i read. hazel eyed asian likes to flirt eh? &give me the eye. muhaha. back to the car. ats found out she didn't have to go to work. so we went back to albertsons to buy beef jerky since we weren't in a rush. saw phillip &hazel eyed asian gave me the wink. oh man. headed to plaza. man killerass sweater at jc penny. 15 bucks. i'm going back for that. went to hollister bought a heart tank top. man i'm killing my atm card! ae cute train floods. worker that complimented my hair. wow two compliments in one day. made my day. :] spotted auntie &her two neices. yay. talked &stuff. &waited for beths butt to come in. talked for 10 minutes. byebye. downstairs. ahhh i love the pink collection from victorias. too cute. i own 3 pairs of undies from that collection... yay! anyways went to sanrio. i saw sy working &yeah. hot topic man i want tons of earrings! then to claires to look for a necklace &snapple lipgloss. but they didn't have the necklace &they only had the lipgloss in banana. ewww. read for a while at bdalton. got my nail did. haha. lady with the weird accent. cool man if only i had money i would have so bought that nail file thing. she was gonna give it to us for 50 %off. my gosssh. but she was straight bitchin' at the end when she found out we was "broke". last stop: downstairs to icing. lalala. home by 330.

cut my bangs. i want my bangs back thats why. they've grown out so long. ats ended up going to work at 5. booo. tv. &now i'm here. at 6 i gotta register for my classes for mesa then do pilates+clean my room+watch road rules later on tonight. &tomorrow, shop with ats at fashion &print out digicam pictures cus i don't have anymore space. thats why all the pictures i post are of me &my sister. muhahaha. k yeah. i miss my boyfriend christopher james soriano this much *spreads out arms* :[ dkjsalk dhsajkead. uhhhh ciaras hotttt! ;] k. i'm done. the endddd.

me. :]

me &ats <333

haha.

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shoppings fun.

2004-08-09T03:42:52Z

lalala. so i went to sleep at 3. &woke up at 1230. teddy grahams for breakfast! tfc. lunch. at 2 ats &i headed to radio shack to print out digicam pictures. downtown. parked at horton since there was a game. walked to our destination. lalala. shopped. &spotted karina callou!!! &we talked for the longest. took a gazillion pictures downstairs. couldn't make up my mind on which bag i wanted. the cutest bag was the most expensive. muhaha. scored with a purse. then back in line for a new pair of sunglasses &heart knee highs. swapped numbers with karina since we didn't get the chance to last time. off to borders. did my usual: grabbed a stack of magazines &up the elevator we gooo! dumped the magazines on the floor &kept one unopened for i was gonna purchase that one... teen people with my sexy hotness cmm on the cover thank you very much. sat down &read for a good half hour. grabbed some jamba juice to get our shit validated. pictures walking downtown &in my car. man downtowns my absolute favorite! but... thats where the bunch of crazys hang. random stoned ass druggies saying hello the guy wearing a tight blazer &a pleather skirt the man blocking our way... its so damn entertaining though. &ats with her pepper spray at hand. shes prepared.

bought pan de sal &then home. got home by 435. read my magazine &watched tv. multi-tasked that muther. white chicks x2. &now i'm here.

tonight, is spagetti night!!! oooh baby! i'm super hungry. then uhhh imma clean my room cus its a total mess chill tv. nothing out of the ordinary. &as for tomorrow, go with the boyfriend to take his senior pictures possibly chill pilates ®ister for classes at 6pm. whooohooo. man, my computers whickity whack i tell ya. i hate it xinfinity 3. yeah ok. i'm done. the end. el fin. tapos na. muhaha whatever beeeyatttch!

in the car.

me &karina.

wait we're looking somewhere else.

too bright.

there you go.

ats &i. cling on to me best friend.

ats &i in my car.

82 degrees. oooh baby.

uhhh.

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good times. good times.

2004-08-08T04:53:31Z

((august 7, 2004))edit_210am.
up at 245pm with a pounding headache. tv. bought some fries &dippin dots at mickeydees for lateass breakfast/lunch. blah blah blah. mother+ats+i left at 530. picked up ats' check from work then paid at sears. stopped by old navy. then i hadta go dookie real bad so i took a dump at mickeydees. mother &ats ate at jollibee. fuck them &their slowass service. i just drank. bobaless boba. weaaak. bought coke atsav-on &then headed home by 840. chilled. showerrr. watched half of white chicks again with ats. &now i'm here. deng its late. but shit i'm wide awake. tomorrow, shop &print out digicam pictures. maaan, i miss my boyfriend. a whole lot. :[ ok yeah whatev. the end for me.

yesterday: august 6, 2004
super longass entry.

slept at 3am. talked to tally. up at 8. mickeydees for breakfast. ats &i off to super cuts at 855 to get our hurrr did. nothing special. just curls cus we's too impatient to do it ourselves. muhahaha. i got the physco lady that didn't know how to curl hair. i had my hair pinned up already &she took it down? that bitch. &she was giving me attitude cus i wasn't satisfied with the way she was curling my hair. check this. ats was done an hour and a half before me &we started the same time. her curls were beautiful &mines were just straight up junk. she was yanking my hair &leaving white stuff on the ends. ewww. make me look durtay. shiiiet. finally done by 1035. &please tell me why i gave her a 5 dollar tip? headed to nordstrom at fashion to get our makeup did at mac. 40 dollars worth of makeup. wheee. we looked like sluts man. i had dark dramatic eyeshadow &he made my eyebrows darker+lipstick?

stopped by radio shack to buy a memory card but they were too damn expensive. got home. kuya was there. soon as we got home, i took off my lipstick &toned it down a bit. searched for food. wasn't enough. got ready. dropped off kuya at chris' parents house. parentals dropped ats &i off to the sheraton around 2. met up with ate &beth &the 3 camera guys. up the elevator we go to that fuckin wonderful penthouse. i felt like i was on an episode of cribs. muhahaha. pictures. helped ate get into her dress. out by 315. 30 minutes late. walked down the aisle with my partnah. yeahhh boyyy! cried me a river when ate was walking down. so much emotion behind it all. blah blah blah. weird guy was pissing me off man. an hour later, it was official. ate &chris were married. yay! pictures. ats+kuya renard+beth+paul+mario+camera guys+ate &chris into the limo. quick stop to the liquor store for some "logs". partied with the older people. yesssa! played them "ghetto jams"... goodies bubbly &jack &coke. no, it wasn't jack. it was something else. off to coronado to take more pictures. interviews. sinking heels. chilled in the penthouse for a while. waited... "you don't have a neck. do you use head &shoulders?" muhaha. marios a little flirt when hes faded. i like paul. :] hes nice. got announced. sat at the head table. kicked off my shoes &for the rest of the night went barefoot. food was bomb. blah blah blah.

dancing time. slow danced with paul. then slow danced with ats. then when the fast songs played, man oh man did i dance. danced like there was no tomorrow. &i loved it. recorded the footage. ahhh. danced with ats+ate+twins. too fun. i owned at the cha cha slide. just call me "the cha cha slide queen" danced. danced. danced. &danced. kuya gilbert was my dancing partnah. cus we could so hang. sweated like crazy but that didn't stop us. break dancing battle with the brown boy. oh hell. 12am hit. it was all over. lights turned on. people started cleaning. feet were mad dirty. sweatyass bods. but it was all worth it. went our seperate ways. fell asleep ride home. kuya shoulda slept over. but he drove home anyway. passed out with my makeup on still. oh well. haha. all in all, it was the best wedding ever. i met a lot of people. beth+paul+mario+camera guys+chris' side of the family+ats& i was a bridesmaid for the first time+drinking illegally+partying with the old folks+dancing the night away. &most of all, my ate got married &she was happy. it was real great seeing the girl smile again. she deserves it. my gosssh. i'd do it all over in a heartbeat.

<3germz.

ats &i.

getting prettied up.

the spectacular view from their penthouse. "floor 12 "P" stands for please get the fuck out"

breath-takingly beautiful cousin of mine.

hello mr. camera man.

beth getting her nasty on in the limo to her ghetto jam "goodies"

me. ats. kuya renard.

the two adorable ring bearers. aka my nephews.

kuya gilbert. ats. me.

&again.

sexy beth. sweaty me. beautiful bride.

fuckin tired. slept with my makeup on.

boohoo.

2004-08-06T05:47:33Z

slept at 4am. got in trouble cus daddy was already off to work at the time &i was still awake. muhahaha. forced myself to sleep. up at 1130. talked to the boyfriend for a while. music videos. lalala. pilates. boyfriend called. oh gosssh. dsakje kadsa. shower power. thanks for calling me back. :[ ats picked me up around 145ish. headed to auntie lindas to pick up our dresses. bang bang bang. crime scene. how scary. so close to home. food at mickeydees. white boy was there. yeah no truck today. :] home. ate. tv. nap time. 4-645. mother+ats+i went to wal*mart to buy a digicam. wasn't on sale anymore. too damn expensive. fts! stopped by donalds to borrow his. in-n-out drive thru that took forever. gosssh. home by 940? ate. &now i'm here. my computers being stupid. argggh. i can't install the program so i could upload olddd pictures. ehhh. anyways tonight, chill &figure out how i want my hair tomorrow. &as for tomorrow, very big day! get our hurrr did at 9+make up did at mac. wedding time. dun dun dun dun. how exciting. k imma try &post pictures or whateverrr.

<3germz.

good day mate.

2004-08-04T20:57:45Z

finally watched white chicks ((bootleg baby!)) last night. all by myself. everyone was sleeping was i was silenty cracking up. muhaha love that movie. went to sleep around 4ish &woke up at 10. called the boyfriend. got ready. music videos. rescheduled doctors appointment. off to boyfriends house at 11. chilled in his room. talked. hugs &kisses. ya know, the good stuff. my cd case. sorry babycakes. &thank you for naming my clip "mr. bear". watched him make pb &j sandwiches for his brother while i wrote him a note with my cool "college writing". muhahaha. 12 got bitched at. yada yada yada. left in a rush. silence on the way home. called the boyfriend. cookies &dip. delish. tv &phone. got my pilate on &now i'm here. tonight, wedding rehearsal at 6. dinner with the whole fam afterwards. pick up daddys tux &if we have time buy me my digicam. if not, then we always have tomorrow. &ohhh! newlyweds &the ashlee simpson show my favorite! :] tomorrow, same stuff+buy my camera if i don't get the chance today. yeah, the end.

edit_1144pm
wedding rehearsal at 6. my partnahs a buff guy! muhahaha. the rude "wedding planner":"no chewing gumming". so picky with the bowing. yada yada yada. got to know chris' sister beth. she looks like the boyfriends sister maaan. hah. done by 8. off to buca de beppo to get our grub on. no parking thanks to the padres game. so we parked at horton got some jamba juice to get our shit validated walked our asses &got our grub on. waiter that was hitting on me. oh gosssh. 3827327 toilet seats covers that needed a thousand flushes. home just in time for the ashlee simpson show season finale. :[ hope theres more seasons to come. washed dishes &now i'm here. tadaaa! tomorrow, usual stuff+pick up dress+buy camera. yeah ok i'm done. byeee.

MYbestfriend. shes so little &cute.

<3germz.

i just want things to go back to normal.

2004-08-03T22:09:41Z

woke up at 10. slumped onto the couch &watched some good 'ol music videos. got ready. left at 11. went to hkb to buy a rosary but it didn't look too durable so i passed. pissed me off. the lady from that store was selling a fake </i>louis vuitton</i> bag exactly like ats' only fake for 233 bucks! wowzaaas she was rippin that lady off! but good thing the lady changed her mind &got her money back after quadruple taking ats' bag. good job! she could buy a real one with the money she was 'bout to waste for that piece of crap. 4 police cars. don't worry, we're filipino. stare all you want. :] muhahaha. off to chula vista mall so ats could handle her biznazzz. ate atin-n-out in my car.

home by 1235. ats left to work, leaving me yet again home alone. i got my pilate on. feel the mutha fuckin burn! yesssa! i'm doing a pretty good job working out &eating less. muhahaha. wiped my beads of sweat &redid my nails pink. watched tv &then the phone rang. talked to the boyfriend for a good 55 minutes or so. booo. &i just get sadddddder. :[ man though, i think i forgot how to talk on the phone. &everything that i've been dying to tell someone, perfect opportunity to, &i completely forgot.

so tonight, hopefully daddy &i will be making that trip to wal*mart so i could buy me my digicam. i mean perfect timing since tomorrows wedding rehearsal/dinner. that should be fun. then imma redye my bangs+summerland jesse mc cartney! oooh baby! then the same routine. tv+internet+sleep the next morning. wheee. &as for tomorrow, buy me a rosary somewhere+chill with the boyfriend finally+my normal everyday routine.wedding rehearsal/dinner later on that night. yeah yeah yeah the end.

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